sorry.

I will shape myself into your pocket
Invisible, do what you want, do what you want
I will shrink and I will disappear
I will slip into the groove and cut me up, and cut me up

There's an empty space inside my heart

Where the weeds take root

And now I'll set you free

I'll set you free

Slowly we unfurl
As lotus flowers
'Cause all I want is the moon upon a stick
Just to see what if
Just to see what is
I can't kick your habit
Just to feed your fast ballooning head
Listen to your heart

We will shrink and be quiet as mice
While the cat is away; do what we want

Do what we want.

Sepatah kata untuk dua bola mata yang menghilang ketika tertawa.

Aku mau mencintaimu dengan sederhana.
Sesederhana tawa anak-anak di pematang senja,
Begitu lepas, bebas.

Aku mau mencintaimu dengan sederhana.
Sesederhana sebuah gerhana.
Kesabaran matahari dan bulan,
yang saling mencintai walau terpisahkan ketidak masuk akalan.

Aku mau mencintaimu dengan sederhana.
Sesederhana aksara.
Sesederhana satu dua dan tiga.

Aku mau mencintaimu dengan sederhana.

Aku ingin menjadi hayal dalam pikirmu.
Yang selalu menjadi benalu,
Mengakar hebat
dan menjalar dengan kuat.

Aku ingin menjadi wujud dalam kehampaanmu,
yang selalu kau agungkan
walau dalam ketiadaan.

Aku ingin menjadi nyata atas kebahagiaanmu
yang selalu membuatmu tersenyum,
walau dalam kesedihan yang meranum.




-Ad.

Being an Oh-So-Called Secret Admirer.

I bet you've heard and comprehence what a secret admirer is. And earlier today, i came to the realization of how hilarious one secret admirer can be. Living in the simplest happiness.

How can I say they have the simplest happiness?

Ever met someone and by admiring their existence, could make up your whole day?

Ever met someone and by hearing him talking to his friends, could make you smile for whole day?

Ever met someone and by him walking pass through you, could make your heart pumps and jumps out?

Ever met someone and by looking straight to his eyes, you died inside?

Ever met someone and by looking to his smile, could create butterflies riot inside your tummy?

It's about how you enjoy falling in love alone.

How you stare alone.

How you think of someone alone.

How you smile alone.

How you dream of someone alone.

How you pray for someone alone.

and how you do that  with pure sincerity;

you don't expect a feedback.

because you don't need to,

you fall in love alone.

There are always those things you wish you'd have,

those words you wish you'd say.

But even the smallest thing like "i don't want to hurt him"

can beat the biggest guts to spew those things.

Have you ever thought just how funny things turned out to be?

Like how can oneself forgets what the other remembers,

How can the sky looks so blue, but still you feel the bluest?

How can candies taste so sweet, but still left bitter taste in the end?

How can someone looks so okay in the daytime, but cry themselves to sleep?

How can the poor laughs louder than the rich?

How can you struggle for something so hard but end up in vain?

How can you love someone so much but end up destroying them?

-alt

Sabrina's concert, live in Malang. 18/5.

"who knows what you might learn from taking a chance on conversation with a stranger?"

-@katadochi

That's what they said about meeting up with strangers
We were both young, and pretty reckless
We talked about you and me for hours
I never thought that would make me a mess and a madness.

We were in an accoustic gig that night
Talking about anything in sight
I really wish I could just hold onto that time tight.

You said you love Blink 182
You asked me if i do? I do
If this is a fairytale, i hope you're true.
I know this is a sin, but it's okay hence it's about you
For I know I'm a sinner, and you too.