Nothing can help someone in love,

not a framework, nor logic

not even a PhD.

I love you even when you hurt me all over again

when even after I forgave you and convinced myself to give you another chance,

you still do.

I love you even when you don't even ask about how my day was,

when even on the morning I had to take shooting pills because my nerves put me on the edge

and on the evening I can't sleep because scary thoughts kept me wide awake

you don't even care.

I love you even when you treat me in the coldest manner one could ever imagine

and in every waking part of my day, I kept thinking if there are any other couples out there

who just talked 3 sentences with 3 words to each other in a day.

I still love you even when I never know where I stand with you,

when every time I call I always fear that you'd have many things much more important than me

I'm scared of caring 

because most of the time, you'd find it annoying.

Jika apa yang telah berjuta hari kita jalani,

memang benar hanya sekedar simulasi

dan manusia adalah Tuhan bagi kehidupannya masing-masing,

aku hanya berharap, aku menjadi manusia yang pandai bermain sulap.

mengubah kembali cara pandangmu 

yang sudah menghitam, di setiap saat kamu melihat aku.

mengganti benci yang perlahan tumbuh,

dengan harap dan kasih yang senantiasa penuh.

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Tetapi nyatanya, aku manusia biasa.

Yang bahkan kuasa atas diri sendiri pun tidak punya.