still my favorite April.

Hi Ze.
It's been a long--very long while since we last met;
it was somewhen in May 2016 if i'm not mistaken?
Because the next meeting was unplanned and unexpected, i was with Gilang after all.

You're always on my mind since then.
Never left and never will.

Last night has been surreal for me, seeing you standing in front of me,
you caught me off guard, you really did.

Maybe it's just me, maybe it's all in my mind, or maybe it's because it was you..

though the fist meeting was short and i didn't even know if you noticed it was me or not,
i'm glad that god gave me another chance to meet and talk to you,
you were alone at the back of the crowd, nothing new.
If you'd only knew, i was shaking, gathering words and courage just to walk myself up to you.

"Hi Ze, sama siapa?" a stupid question for i knew you came with Momo.
"Eh, sama Momo tadi"
your smile is the kind of smile that could make me fall in love with Rossi so instantly.

Isn't it sad and wonderful at the same time,
to know that i haven't changed even a bit, after everything i've been through?

At times i think that the very existence of me annoy you,
that i'm of no important to your life.
But not last night,
i just want you to understand that you too could make an impact on someone,
other than her, Ze.

that there'll always be someone who can accept you just the way you are,
the personality that you bear. Without you have to change anything about it.

Ze, i hope meeting me left something on you.
Just like what you did on me.

I'm happy that you seem to have been put together;
and if last night was the last time i saw you, i'm so thankful for it.