To you, Z.

"Alita" only one word came up from my phone screen. I literally freaked out, when i found out that it was you who sent the message. "Ya, Z?" i couldn't even think properly.
"Ta, can i talk to you? Tapi agak maleman, i'm still in a meeting." my heart beats faster by then. I know where this conversation would lead us to.
"About what? I could if i'm still up. Just buzz me up later."
"There's something that bother me lately. Wait ya, ta :)"
Same here, Z, i felt the same too.

2 weeks before this was the last time we catch up with each other, those fun chit and chats.
And you disappeared just like that, gone with the wind.
I prayed to God since then. Prayed for you, every-fucking-single day.
And He listened to my prayers anyway. He granted my wishes.

"Ta, still up?'
"Sure."

Z is calling you...

and my hands trembled. I couldn't even feel my skin anymore.. I'm as nervous as i'd never been before.
To finally hear your voices through the phone.. I'd never even dreamt about this thing before for i knew this is impossible. But sometimes, miracles do exist, right?

"Hi, ta, gue ganggu, gak?"
I'd literally give up anything just to talk to you, Z. I just really miss your voice. Even if i could, i would hunt Xavier down and ask him to stop the whole world except mine and yours, just so we could talk in peace.


At first, it was hard for me to put myself together and talk normally to you. Especially when we talk about the things, silly silly things that has been going on between our relationship these past weeks. It's awkward i should admit.. But I could make it. We made it. We talked each other's heart out.

And, God, if this gift is given for only once in my lifetime, i'd remember every second of it.
The way he laughs, the way he sounds
even the way he breaths.

2 hours and 15 minutes of talking about movies, my favorite and yours. How we laughed about your Fulan and Ahmed joke when i told you a glimpse of Submarine. And how you explained thoroughly about The Goonies and i could just tell that you love that movie so much, by your excitement and your voice.

about music, our favorite ones. And how you used to be a manager for this high school band, how you filled up the silence with talking about all of your cds, cassettes, and records collection. We talked about The Trees and The Wild, how we accidentally have the same Rasuk record from them (jeez, even i could only name a few people who own that), how we laughed at how silly Remedy and Iga's fight is. And just how we went to the same concert, 6 years ago.

about art exhibition that you went to that i've been dying to come to. And of course about Gema Semesta, my favorite artist, that you happened to like too (this is getting weird. Really. Who the fuck knows Gema Semesta?). About darbotz, and other artists

about books. Have i told anyone lately that we share this same amount of admiration towards Ika Natassa? I love how we discussed about who should be Ruly and who should be Harris. And how we worried about the disappointment we'd get if the movie turned out crap. (dude, really, i love Antologi Rasa that much. THAT much.)

about Game of Thrones, of course. How i love it everytime you told me about your theories. About how Jon is possiby Meera's twin brother. How annoying Petyr Baelish was and how Ramsay would die in this season. I personally would grant the title of "game of thrones walking encyclopedia" to you.

and how we just talked about our lives.
Talked about how each other's feeling now.
About your ex,
about mine,
about how we both ended our relationship in a very-very shitty way.
About your distantophobic attitude.

I swear, i fucking swear, i'll remember all of these, Z.

all of these.

and how you told me,

how funny it is that

"We accidentally have so many things in common, Ta."