it's like a never-ending roller coaster ride

"you're hot and you're cold, you're yes and you're no, you're in and you're out, you're wrong when it's right, it's black, it's white."

it's been a really, really hard 8 days for me (for us?). almost every night i wondered about my worth, my place, and where do we stand, above this groundless tread.

I gave up, a few times, i dysfunctioned (like i always do), i stood up and there you are, again.
I gave you so many chances, of course you don't know and of course this is not your fault either, none of this is.
I'm so sorry i don't know what i want, though i'm sure you don't know either,
we're both just as clueless.

Life happens, Ri, and things change,
i hope you're always brave enough to face everything,
including facing the truth, if it ever comes to hurting me.

welcome back home, Ri.
i still can't wait to see you, to hug and to smell your scent, to witness your prescence.